Rookie Status- Can I Follow Through?

Well, paint my ass yellow and call me a rookie! I have finally decided, thanks to Kim and Hannah whose Blogs I enjoy on a weekly basis, to create my very own Blog... YAY!!! It's not like I don't chatter enough with the verbal word, but I've now decided to create a blog to chatter with the written word. The wonderful part about about a Blog though, is if somebody gets tired of what your saying, there are no interruptions or people challenging what you are saying.. Nope.. if they don't like what you are saying, or get bored with your ramblings they can just close the web browser!!

So my intention with this Blog is I'd like to use it weekly, or even daily if I feel like it, to update my friends and family on the happenings in my sometimes hectic, sometimes like a Lifetime Original Movie, sometimes disastrous, but ALWAYS an adventure of a life. Hopefully I can actually follow through with this Blog, but..... If this ends up being the only post you see, you'll know that I didn't follow through like I had originally planned. In a perfect world, I am hoping to have weekly blogs equipped with pictures and all that jazzy stuff, but.... we'll see. I've said for 5 months that I was going to start taking up scrap-booking, but I've yet to actually buy a scrapbook to even start on.... so hopefully this will pan out much better than my scrapbook idea.

Yesterday I was admiring the scrapbook that my brother's girlfriend Alex started on a mere 5 days ago.. Wow.... I was soooo impressed with that little masterpiece that she says, "Isn't even close to being done". In 5 days she managed to put 9 months of her and my brother's year and a half long relationship on these beautifully decorated pages. There were movie tickets, brochures, menus, even parking passes from essentially EVERYTHING they had done together as a couple and they were strategically arranged on these bright pieces of paper with all these cute stickers and decorations surrounding the pictures of their happy smiling faces! I was really impressed! Of course I immediately got inspired and asked her if she'd help me start one of my own because I had been talking about doing one, but... of course.. NEVER FOLLOWED THROUGH with it!

It amazes me sometimes. I am often told I am a very creative person, in fact, I know I am a very creative person. You can ask me to sit down and write an article or a short story, or better yet and more fitting, a racing press release and I could come up with something amazing and dazzling in less than 10 minutes without even trying. But, somehow when it comes to actually putting my creative energy to work, I don't exactly produce the greatest and well... lets be honest here, FINISHED results! I am pretty sure that if I was actually productive with all these creative juices that flow through me... hell... I'd probably have a lot of things to be proud of! I bet my house would just be awesome and well decorated with recent pictures on my walls, maybe even a cute little patio scene going on on my porch.... geez maybe even a herb garden of some sorts. I'd even settle for a plant that I could keep alive for more than 2 months! I know I'd have updated photo albums, so that when I am 85 years old and covered with grand children, I have SOMETHING to show them of my life, as opposed to busting out a computer and showing them my Myspace..... That's it... I'll be 85 years old and still have a Myspace showing pictures of me rockin' some Bingo at the old folks home.... sticking my tongue out and throwing the horns when I've had a bit too much Geritol and I feel like busting out of my girdle and shaking that prosthetic hip like it's no one else's business... YEAH BUDDY!!!

Funny thing, looking at Alex's scrapbook it dawned on me, it takes a lot of time to do something like that. Not just to cut out the little sayings and pictures and pasting them on the pages of the album, but actually getting digital photos printed on photo paper and grabbing those little, what seem to be insignificant to most people, but very much significant, items of memorabilia to accompany those Kodak moments. You know I look back to my first real relationship and I used to save stuff like that constantly and I kept them in a little shoe box, which found it's way to a dumpster not too long after the relationship ended. I had saved everything; flowers he had given me, which I had dried out and pressed to save forever, little cards he had written out to me, old movie tickets, receipts from outings we had gone to... you name it I saved it and for no other reason than just being "sentimental".

Sadly, I don't really do that anymore. Me, the freakin pack rat that I am, that manages to save every phonebook that's placed on my doorstep, every coupon that comes in the mail from Bed Bath and Beyond, that has long ago expired, that I swore I was going to use when I initially got it, every bottle of lotion or perfume that I know I will never wear or use because the scent disgusts me but think I should keep "just in case".... Yes... THAT person can't seem to hold on to a few movie tickets or take an extra second out of my day, while in a new place, to grab a map or brochure or even a freakin cocktail napkin that I rest my drink on, to put on the pages of a scrapbook validating that I was in FACT there and that my photos aren't just a product of photoshop.

Maybe I am just too damn impatient. Maybe that's what the problem is. I have all this steam and all this energy when THINKING about the idea of doing something, but when it comes to actually doing it and it miraculously doesn't just appear before my pretty little face at that exact moment, I get impatient and then don't follow through. What a concept right? "I want it now.. butttttt... I don't want to put any of the labor into making it happen, I just want it to happen right now!" Ahhhhh the story of my spoiled little life! LOL

So as of this moment I am making a vow, somewhat of a New Years Resolution about 9 months too late. I am going to actually start things I talk about starting and I am actually going to FINISH them once I start them! What a novel idea! Why hasn't anybody thought of that before?? LOL! I am also NOT going to get so damn impatient when I don't get what I want, and then give up before giving it a chance to take shape.... and I mean this in ALL aspects of my life. Hey, I may be 25 years old and "technically" considered an adult... but I still have a little bit of growing up to do.... and I am working on it.... :-)